Worries & Allaying Them
Worries
Things are still going badly with my partner. I'm always saying the wrong things. I think my boundaries are too strict and I need to loosen up. This is one thing I don't want to compromise on, though, so I don't know if I'm to blame here.
I feel nervous about blogging so much, nearly every day, but this is what I would do on Tumblr, I guess. Just in longform.
In the meantime, I have car insurance and a dental appointment to worry about tomorrow. They told me I'd need an onlay, but for some reason, I'm dreading the procedure. I may ask if they can do something less invasive. Especially with a trip coming up soon.
Either way, I'd need to replace my grind guard. I don't know what to really do about that. I hope I can hold myself together during my appointment.
On traveling, I'm going to the Philippines again soon. My grandmother's health isn't very good. I'm concerned about work and what to say to my supervisor. I'm only working part-time, but I dislike feeling so out of control. I also don't want to let him down since I'm looking to get a full time position at this company if graduate school doesn't work out.
I think I bombed my graduate school interview. I sent some thank you emails today, but I think that doesn't do anything to boost my chances.
Allaying Them
I'm trying to play games to take my mind off it. I've been obsessed with my PS Vita lately. I homebrewed it so it has a billion games. Tonight I looked at the visual novels London Detective Mysteria and. Code: Realize ~Guardian of Rebirth~ to see what I'd be interested in playing for the next few weeks. I like otome that have voice acted protagonists like the former, but the dramatic setting of the latter is compelling to me. I also just love protagonists with brown hair. They look like me.
I want to play more games this year. If I reach my goal of playing a lot of otome and joseimuke, I'll write up a post with my recommendations. I really want to play more, but I only have access to older ones really...
I think I'll be okay if I don't get into graduate school this year since I have a backup plan.
Even though I'm having a lot of conflict with my partner, we're going to try and have fun this Friday. We're watching through some anime together.
I redid my guestbook. I didn't realize that meadowing's guestbook lacks a reply feature. I hope my singular commenter doesn't mind that I took their comment and reposted it. I wanted to still have it on there so they knew I saw it. I stylized it very quickly on my phone, but I like how it turned out. I'm still aiming to maintain my Umineko no Naku Koro ni theming.