Making a Diary Public
Actually...I'm not even sure if my blog was approved. I wouldn't be surprised if it wasn't, since I haven't heard anything back at all. Unless I missed an email.
I'm a Tumblr refugee so I like the idea of people reading my blog. Unfortunately due to my personality disorder, I felt that I couldn't exist on Tumblr anymore without wanting to rip my own brains out. This, combined with going through a rough patch with my partner(s) is why I moved to bear.
Part of me wanted the quiet solitude, the alone-ness of it, but I eventually submitted my blog for review after a friend who started their own bearblog was receiving feedback...welcoming and kind feedback...on their posts.
...And, suffice to say, I wanted in. No, I don't solely blog for attention, but the idea of someone maybe seeing what I write is...nice. There is a specific write.as blog that I stumbled on while looking for a place to blog that's essentially just one person anonymously chronicling his life. A lot of what he wrote inspired me, and I wish I could reach out to him. Write.as doesn't make that easy, likely by the blogger's design, but it is regrettable I can't tell him that his letters to himself drove me to starting my own blog.
It's been strange, really. I like being able to blog freely without worrying about my partner or friends seeing what I'm saying, but also because of my personality disorder, I feel somewhat obligated to...tell them I'm doing this. ...I most likely won't, but the urge is there regardless.
If this somehow ends up on the discover feed, well, hello to everyone reading this. But if this never makes it on there, well, I wonder how you stumbled on me in the first place? I'd like to know, if you're the talking type. I'm curious and would like to try and make friends, even though I'm quite bad at it.